parsely, sage, rosemary, and thyme & a butterfly

July 22, 2017

tellie

July 19, 2017


My hair is too long
Should I cut it to below my ears?
I found seven shells at the beach
I don’t like my right hand
This orange stripe shirt is new and it is my favorite
I cleaned my room yesterday
The world is too quiet
Sarah got four or so more plants for the windowsills
I need to practice my piano
And write in my journal
And have my second ice cream of the day
I like blogging but I think I post too much
Dead animals and bleach mixed together smell terrible (don’t ask)
I wish my ballpoint “leftie pens” would run out of ink faster so I could put a different color ink in them
Farm chores await.
xx

oh and the secret life of bees is a good book.
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ice cream, sunglasses, taylor swift, gone with the wind, + lots & lots of photos

July 18, 2017

. . . this was what the June 2017 Key visit comprised of.  


Rhea | Portraits | April 2017

July 17, 2017


County Fair 2017 entries

July 13, 2017


So a funny story. :)  
Today we put the goats and sheep down pasture in the electric fence and left the permanent fence gate open.  We got a crazy flash flood that afternoon and it rained super hard for a few hours.  The sheep got out twice and Sarah went down to put them in.  While putting them back in the permanent fencing the second time, she noticed that the gate was open and that she had forgotten to close it the first time when she put them in the permanent fencing after they got out of the electric.  
She walked up the pasture to the barn (which is in the permanent fencing) and the goats were just sitting peacefully in the barn!  They had voluntarily stayed in there even when the gate was left open!  Apparently, they must have gotten out from the electric the first time and come straight up to the permanent fencing and the barn because they hated the rain so much.  And were sitting in there all afternoon.
Anyhoo, probably a pretty confusing story to you guys, but I tried my best.  It was actually pretty hilarious when we realized what the goats had done, but I had trouble explaining it. ;D

New favorite song: Featherstone by The Paper Kites 

As We Are // What's Up With the Title?? + Much More

July 10, 2017

Everyone rejoice!!  Words at last! ;D


I have been asked before the meaning behind the title of my novel, as we are. Usually, I just reply, ”you'll see”, as any good writer would who doesn't really want to explain. ;)

But now I am here to explain.


When I first came up with As We Are’s title, I was aiming for something that sounded along the lines of Jesus loving and accepting us as we are, no matter what we’ve done. Not all the characters in my book are perfectly moral. They all struggle. When I first started As We Are in January 2016, I don't think I really understood what I was getting myself into. My first plotline was handwritten on some notebook paper and was about three-quarters of a page long. It was simple, with some cliche plot twists and basic dull characters. But as the months drew on and I wrote and rewrote plot lines and character profiles, I realized that As We Are was going to have a lot more to it that I first thought.


Starting in November 2015, I read Gone With the Wind by Margaret Mitchell. The book is epic and touches on everything you could ever encounter in life. Even more inspiring though, was Margaret Mitchell's way of writing it.

If you've ever read the book, you might understand what I mean. Her style is fascinating and totally brilliant and unique. She describes every single thing . . . so well. Like a particularly talented L. M. Montgomery would. And yet she leaves more than ever to the reader to think up themselves.

I still don't know exactly how she did it. All I know is that even the moment I started the book, it was immediately ranked #1 of all the books I had ever read in my entire life. It was as if Margaret Mitchell had actually put life into her written words.

Gone With the Wind didn’t feel like a story, it felt like real life. To me, that was the greatest thing ever.


I finished Gone With the Wind in February 2016. I was inspired beyond words, My mission in writing is to put life into my stories, and seeing that someone else had successfully done just that was beautiful.

I plotted madly.

My characters developed into nearly living and breathing things.


I believe that all stories have a basic moral or meaning they are trying to get across. To me, Gone With the Wind’s was that no matter how hard you try, you cannot change or go back to the past. Once something happens, it is written in the book of your life and cannot ever really fully be undone. You cannot ever live through something that happened again. The past is “gone with the wind” so to speak. This meant the world to me. Gone With the Wind bears such a beautiful, sad, worldly message.


And so As We Are was born. A spirited little colt, ready to leave its own message with the world. Ready to live beyond its author’s grave.

I don't aim to write a perfect story. In fact, that's exactly what I don't want to write. I witnessed life in the pages of a book and I want to somehow do that as well.

Humans make mistakes. They make a lot of them their whole lives.

Most writers (I've seen): the characters lives start out perfect and then something huge happens to change it. Things go downhill. At the end of the book, the character’s life is perfect again and they've learned something . . .

But honestly, that is not really how it works. There are ups and downs throughout our entire lives.



I'm not trying to bash and group together all these writers that do this. I've done the same thing in my books too many times to count unfortunately. But if what they're aiming for is to paint lifelike books, they've got it all wrong. Our lives hold so much more than just twenty chapters of great adventure that just peter out at the end of the book. Why, Gone With the Wind has 1,024 pages and 63 chapters. And Margaret Mitchell doesn't even finish the book! She closes with an open-ended sentence letting the reader finish the rest of Scarlett's life as they wish. It's a very unsatisfactory ending, but I think that's why it's so famous. Because where Gone With the Wind ends, a new story begins.

This is the most lifelike book I have ever come across and I think it will ever come across. I think there need to be more books like it.


I titled my book As We Are in the summer of 2016. I knew I had wanted the story behind the title to be something to do with Teddy admitting to Philippe at the end of the book that he loved her as she was, and no matter what she did, he would always love her. It was only just a few months ago in 2017 that I came up with Teddy's exact line:

“If I take you, Philippe, I will take you as you are. For it’s not the fake Philippe I love, but the one who stands here beside me.”

It's such a simple line, but it means everything.

What I write in As We Are will not be Philippe’s whole life.


I want it to be the kind of book that leaves you sobbing in places, laughing hysterically, wildly in others, feeling a kneading in your heart because the book is so darn beautiful. 

I want it to be a life-changer. 

A race-winner. 

A whole world of its own.

More than just a good book.



I have every intention of finishing this book even if it takes ten years. It will be worth it. Because the greatest gift I am giving this story is my time. And once it holds that with part of my soul and a portion of my heart, it will be so powerful and so unforgettable. Words are certainly powerful, but it's really how you use them that makes the difference.

Also one of the weirdest things about As We Are so far is that as I keep writing word after word, I have noticed that it is unintentionally my life. All the characters have twins in my life. And the story is my story. At least so far.
I plotted the book before those things in my life happened though. Umm okay that's creepy . . . ;)

Anyhoo, I'm sure the title will gain a more sure meaning as the book continues to be written.


Yet another post from yours truly,
Sophy xx

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